Sunday, August 28, 2016

8/28/16: Getting Ready for School

108 days until Costa Rica!

Pretty normal Sunday today. I was pretty productive and finished folding clothes and put in a new load of laundry. Then I got my bag ready for tomorrow, filled it with notebooks, folder and paper. Afterwards I went for a brisk 45 minute walk around the neighborhood to get some exercise and steps. I ran into Sam while walking and chatted with her for a bit. I don't know why but talking to her sometimes is awkward, but it's always super nice to see her. She's always very sweet and kind~

For lunch today, my family took us to a barbecue restaurant called Dickey's and there I had 4 ounces of marinated chicken and a cup of Caesar salad and potato salad. I had some calories left over, so I ate a little bit of the free vanilla soft serve they had. For dinner, I had some pork, half a cup of green papayas, some oysters, and some watermelon cubes for dessert. 30 minutes after dinner, I went for a 5 minute run to get my goal of over 6k steps and it felt really good! I ended up having 300 calories leftover, so I ate two chocolate chip cookies as a treat. Pretty good meals today! Not sure what to have for lunch and dinner tomorrow, though. I think I'll make a toasted bagel sandwich and bring a protein bar and edamame chips to school. For dinner, hopefully Adam's leftover burrito from Mex Riv is still there and I can eat that. I'll bring salad and Coco Ichibanya dressing too. Maybe I'll have time to make dumplings if I do my make up in the car.

I'm feeling excited for school tomorrow, actually. I'm not excited that I have to get to school at 8 just to get parking, but I'm excited to be productive and have work to do again. Tomorrow is political science and multi-variable calculus, so it should be easy. I think I have a friend in calculus, but not so sure about poli sci! Still, I heard the professor is hot so I'm kind of excited.

Three things I'm grateful for today:

  1. Ace Attorney music
  2. Peaceful walks
  3. Old Spongebob episodes

Saturday, August 27, 2016

8/27/16: Better Pasta

109 Days until Costa Rica!

Today was another date day with Adam and the last one before school starts. I felt a little bit sad, but not so much because we're seeing each other on Monday after my classes are over heheh. We spent the first couple hours sleeping and then we watched a few episodes of Jane the Virgin before going to lunch. We went to a nearby Mexican restaurant and I got chicken taquitos with tortilla soup and a salad and it was mostly good except for the fact that the salad was literally a pile of shredded iceberg lettuce with a little bit of shredded cheese and tomatoes. Still, the whole meal tasted really good and was low in calories!

The rest of the day we relaxed and binge watched Jane the Virgin while Adam played WoW and I played Ace Attorney and it was pretty nice. We took Buddy out for a walk and took him to Adam's old middle school's big field. It was so cute watching Buddy run around! We chased him and let him wander around for a while and then went back home.

One of the highlights was that we got take out from Scardino's for dinner and even just their marinara pasta and pepperoni pizza tasted so amazing! I was a little tired of the sauce I was making this week (even though I made it taste really good yesterday), so higher quality pasta made my night. That+pizza+Jane the Virgin+Adam made for such a nice night~

Then we had "fun times" after dinner and then watched Spongebob clips until I had to go home lol. Most of the clips made us laugh really hard and now I wanna rewatch all the old school episodes. The date day was really fast but still really nice!

Monday is coming up and I've decided to go to school at 8 for guaranteed parking. I'm probably going to have to do this for two weeks because of the start of the school year. It'll give me time to study in the morning but I don't want to wake up that early, especially when my class doesn't start until 11... Either way I'm not too nervous about it. I'm a little excited, even.

Three Things I'm Grateful For:

  1. Watching Jane the Virgin with Adam 
  2. All the pasta I got to eat this week 
  3. Playing with Buddy out in the field 

Friday, August 26, 2016

8/26/16: Lost Weight & Anxiety

110 Days until Costa Rica!

Hehe, pretty nice huh? I'm going to start doing that to help me stay motivated during the semester and to help keep me on track with saving money.

So Adam and I officially locked down our choices for activities during Costa Rica. We are going to do an Arenal Volcano and Rainforest Hike as well as a Cortez Waterfall tour. The Arenal Volcano one leads to a hot springs, which is the main reason why I wanted to do it and the waterfall tour lets us swim in the actual falls! I'm so excited, but I need to make sure to make sure I save more than $36 every two weeks. The budgeting and extra work I'm doing should help. Not to mention I have extra money in my checking account which I'm storing for the trip. 

Today was a date day with Adam and it was very nice! Mostly relaxing because Adam was still exhausted from spending the whole day at UCLA while only getting 3 hours of sleep. We mostly had "fun times," played video games, and watched Jane the Virgin season 2 which just came out on Netflix!!! 

I also had an appointment with Dr. Bassi. I had a pretty good session, my situation these past couple of months have been very good. I'm successful in school, I have loyal friends and family, and my relationship with Adam is trusting and healthy. We talked about Adam and agreed that if the worst case scenario happens where Adam meets someone he's more interested in than me, he wouldn't cheat on me and would instead be honest and let me know. It's not a pleasant thought to have, but it's good knowing that our relationship is healthy enough that I can believe in him in this way. She's very proud of me and I'm so happy that I work well with her. I've heard a lot of stories of people having trouble with finding a therapist that works for them, so I feel very fortunate to be able to progress so well with Dr. Bassi. Every time I have a session with her, I feel more inspired and motivated to do my best and live in the moment. 

I weighed myself today and I weigh... 120.4 lbs! The scale read 120.9, so I took off 0.5 lbs to account for my pajamas. I am so surprised to see how much weight I lost since my last weigh in a couple of months ago! I'm hoping I can maintain this weight and maybe even lose more. 

My meals for today were: 
Breakfast - 2 mini bran muffins and 1 light string cheese
Lunch - spaghetti made out of 2/7 (about) box of fettuccine noodles, 1/2 a cup of traditional spaghetti sauce, and seasoning and red pepper flakes for flavor. 
Dinner - the same as lunch, except twice the amount because I still had 1000+ calories left to eat. 
Snacks - hot chocolate made with hot water. 

I think my meals were pretty good today because of the servings of fruit and veg in the sauce, but tomorrow I want to have less carbs. I'm going to bring some leafy greens to Adam's tomorrow to eat some salad because I still have my Coco Ichibanya dressing.

Overall, it was a pretty good day. Nothing special happened, but time passes so quickly whenever I'm with him. Sometimes it scares me because I want to treasure every single moment that we have together.

Three things I'm grateful for today:

  1. How well my pasta sauce turned out
  2. Buddy dog being a cutie as always
  3. Jane the Virgin! It's seriously one of my favorite shows now 

Thursday, August 25, 2016

8/25/2016: A Stressful Payday

The only really interesting thing that happened today was work. I had to help work the front office because we only had three people (other than the doctor) in the office and one of us was helping with the patients. I was running back and forth answering calls and completing tasks and messages, but time passed by really quickly! Today was also payday and I was originally going to drive to the other office to pick it up after my shift was over. However, my aunt/boss told us that she worked on them early, so I went with one of my coworkers to pick it up. We had an hour and we were still late because of traffic and getting gas lol I got pretty stressed... But my aunt who's a doctor was there and was very sweet to me~. I got paid in the end and went home around the same time. I got $100 from the 10 hours I worked during the last two weeks of school. That's more than usual and this weeks budget looks better now! However... I forgot that I need to save up money for activities in Costa Rica in December. I looked over it and the two that I definitely want to do cost in total $280. My total profits from these past two weeks are about $38. So... If I keep up the same budgeting habits while working a bit more and saving better, then I can have at least $380 in 20 weeks/5 month, which is just what I need! I just need to not indulge in any skincare products or Liz Lisa...

It's hard though because I just found a website of a girl who is selling old Liz Lisa clothes at really reasonable prices. I saw a good dress for only $28. Hopefully once I have more than enough money I can treat myself to one. I found the website through a girl I follow on Twitter and saw that she wears Liz Lisa which bothered me for some reason? Idk, she likes J-Fashion too but I always thought I was different from her by focusing on the hime-gyaru style. It's pretty bad and petty for me to feel this way though. It should be fine for others to be interested in Liz Lisa too.

Fitness wise, I didn't get as many steps as I would have liked today. I didn't walk anywhere and I was tired after work so I was loafing around for a few hours, so an hour after dinner I went for a short run around the community and did 0.7 miles (with a little bit of walking). It was hard, but it felt good! I definitely like night runs more than daytime runs since it's less hot and I'm not getting anymore tan. I have a total of about 3500 steps today and was able to stay under my calorie goal. Tomorrow I'm going to weight myself before breakfast and see where I'm at... I'm going to subtract 1-2 lbs for clothes of course, but I'm still nervous to see how my weight is. My goal by December is 120 lbs along with a higher stamina and healthier lifestyle.

I'm spending the rest of the night playing Miles Edgeworth Investigations because I finally found it and I'm going to try to finish it soon! Ace Attorney games are sooo good and make me feel so happy~

Three things I'm grateful for today:

  1. Super delicious bagel sandwich I made
  2. Getting Danganronpa 2 to work again
  3. Tap my Katamari, it's soooo cute

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

08/24/2016: First Post

(first post of the blog wooo)

This blog is just going to be a little diary for me since writing physically in my journal is too time consuming for now... I'd like to make my journal really cute and decorative but I don't have the energy at the moment lol. I'll be posting daily journals and photo albums filled with stuff from my personal life as something for me to easily look back to in the future. It'll be nice!

This week is my last week off before fall semester starts again, so I've been working more hours at the office to make some extra money while I can. I've been wanting to work 9-3pm, and I have, but my coworkers have been breathing down my neck and bugging me about how long I work. Most of them usually work until closing, but I have the privilege since I'm related to the owner/doctor to choose how many hours a week I work. I want to work 9-3pm so I can have time afterwards in my day to hang out with my friends, boyfriend, family, or just relax by myself. Buuuut... My coworkers keep asking me why I'm only working until 3 and that I should work until 5 to make more money and yada yada and ugh. I don't know what to say to them, but I'm starting to care less about what they think about my hours. I'm just getting annoyed at them bugging me about my work schedule. Can they pleeeease just mind their own business? I'm working until 3 tomorrow so I can go pick up my paycheck and still be able to talk to my aunt/boss before she leaves, but I'm sure when my coworkers ask they'll keep pestering me. My fake ass excuse is that I'm going to a therapist appointment at 4, but I kind of don't want them to think I'm avoiding my job. Whatever...

I've been trying to get fit again for my trip to Costa Rica with Adam, my boyfriend, and his family so I can look nice in my new bikini. I watch how many calories I have in a day now and it's crazy realizing how much I overeat in a day... I'm using myfitnesspal to track my food and weight and I made my goal to lose 1/2 a pound a week and to reach a goal weight of 120 lbs. Last weigh in I was 125.1 and I haven't checked since! I'm going to recheck again on Sunday. To gain muscle and stamina, I've been trying to walk more steps and gradually start running. I also do yoga and calisthenics in the morning and the evening. Of course, I'll do work outs when I can! It's been a little tough this week since I started all of this this week and I've been feeling hungry because of it. I'm going to try to eat healthier foods that will keep me full longer.

I'm not seeing Adam until Friday and I haven't seen him since Monday, so we're trying to call each other every night to keep the communication up. It's also good practice for when he moves into UCLA. I didn't dwell on how much I missed him today, which is progress! I'm trying to be less needy in our relationship and become more independent. I'm trying to go from seeing him from 4-5 times a week to 3 times a week until eventually it's 1 time a week. The transition is slow but definitely happening!

Three things I'm grateful for from today:

  1. The sheet masks Mom bought me 
  2. The strawberry acai refresher my coworker bought me
  3. Wednesday night yoga lessons