morning pages! at work version. i'm still trying to decide whether i like typing or writing more. typing is easier and quicker but writing feels more raw and personal. i might try writing tomorrow.
yesterday was interesting. brendan has kind of been quiet for the past couple of days and monday's text didn't get answered until last night when he said that he's been feeling really shitty and i asked him why and he said that it's nothing serious and that he doesn't want to worry me. which is sweet of him but like... if he's not feeling good then of course i want to help. i didn't dig any deeper than that though and just told him that i don't mind if he shares his problems with me and that it's not a burden and that he can come talk to me with what's up when he's ready. i don't know, it feels kind of strange and i know that he's a private person and he doesn't usually share things like that easily, but it would be nice to know. i don't know when he's gonna talk to me again, but my plan of action is to sit back and take a beat. i can't force him to tell me everything if he doesn't want to. and either way, i have other stuff to do and worry about.
for instance, today is kind of full of errands especially because i'm leaving for toronto tomorrow night. i have to go to target after work to buy travel size things and snacks for the plane, work out when i get home, fold my laundry, get some studying in, and come up with my packing list. i'm wondering if i should still go out and study with jay because i'm usually more productive outside of my apartment. but it all depends on when i finish all of my errands.
i have a lot of studying and work to do too: we just got assigned our homework for this week and it's 7 problems!!! last week she only assigned six! and all of them this time seem so long! so i have to get a head start on it, especially since i'm gonna be in canada. on top of that, i still have to put together my Mega Problem Set for chapter 2 and hopefully get some good review in. i'm definitely gonna have to take some time aside while i'm in toronto to do some studying because if i don't, i'm gonna be screwed for the midterm.
the midterm is 40% of our grade too and i'm not sure how to feel about it. the class just feels unstructured because of the professor, so i have to organize all of the material myself. luckily, she said the difficulty will be on par with the homework and will cover things we only talked about in class, so there's a good idea of what'll be on it. i hope i do well!
i've also been worrying about my expenses a lot. i feel like i've been doing too much worrying lately and it's not good. anyways, i spend quite a bit of money on food and the amount i have on my budget tracker and the amount that's in my checking is like ~$100 apart.
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